Secondary

Secondary

Pressure builds in my head

Filling my mind up

Until it bursts

But I’ll never give it that chance

I will force it to fizzle

Out bit by bit

A war between those who

Wish to see me expload

And my own will to stay in control

Keep waiting and watching me

I will never let this stalemate cease

It’s not about winning anymore

It’s about shuffling my feet

Alongside every other android

Just existing for the purpose

Of making the quota

This many is enough

Non-playable characters in

Someone else’s game

Only here to be here

 

I’m not entirely sure why I wrote this. I’ve been feeling weird lately. Enjoy!

-AcuteAnimosity

Battles

Don’t tell me they’ve

“Lost their battle.”

How can you fight

A battle when

There are no

Armies on either side?

There is no clashing of swords

Only the collision of thoughts

There is no popping gunfire

Only loaded feelings

There are no commanders

There is no support

There is only a single

Person sitting

On the battlefield

Armed with soley

Their skewed judgement

To consult with

Don’t tell me that’s a

Damn battle

That’s 6am unable to

Stay asleep, haunted by

Their own mind

That’s 10am surrounded

By people, yet still absolutely alone

That’s 3pm coming home

And  lying to your mother

When she asks how

You day was

That’s  9pm staring at the

Ceiling and wishing

It would concave in

So far that it could

Scoop you out

Of bed and cradle

You beneath the stars

That’s 2am praying

That you won’t ever

Have to do it again

In what battle

Does a soldier

March for years

And gain no ground?

This is no battle

It begins with the intention

To destroy its own own side

It begins with the

Sobs of a frightened,

Lonely person

Not with a war cry

In a battle, a soldier know

What they are walking into

In a battle there is no uncertainty

But this holds only doubts

Doubts that pile up

One on another on another

Until you’re left

Trembling under the

Weight of each loathsome thought but

The one thing this and a battle

Have in common

Is that the both end

But what kind of battle

Ends with friendly fire?

 

-AcuteAnimosity