I apologize, there’s no story or poem in this post, so if that’s what you’re looking for, I promise to get a new one soon! What I want to talk about today is some more college things. Specifically college friends.
Basically when you get to college you are freaking out. Everyone is a bit of a hot mess when they get to college as a freshman. The biggest worry (for those going to a college where few to no friends attend) is friends. You worry about keeping your high school friends, making college friends, and finding people who are best friends. It actually isn’t too hard to make friends at college. You literally just have to jump into a group, which isn’t the easiest, but if you go to one meet up thing you will find other lonely people. That’s how I ended up with Jenny and Madison.What is hard, is finding best friends. I love Madison and Jenny to death. They are both beautiful people inside and out, but sometimes I feel like they connect with each other more than they do with me. They always include me, but they like the same tv shows, they love tumblr, they are just very alike. They have so many things to talk about regarding the things they like, but they don’t exactly share the same likes as me. Which is great! Having diverse friends is so important, but I want someone who I can talk to about the things I love. I know they would both listen to anything I had to say, but it wouldn’t be a two-way conversation. I want to talk about musicals and singing and writing and hockey and League of Legends and Game of Thrones and snowmobiling and so much more. They would listen to me until their ears bled but it wouldn’t be a real conversation. I know this because I listen to them talk about Steven Universe and their interests, and I am never able to contribute much to those chats. I also need to find someone with a similar walk of life. The three of us look identical if you look superficially. We are middle class, white, female, from the same state. However, both Jenny and Madison have parents who are still together. In fact, I have yet to meet any other kids with divorced parents here. That’s a big part of who I am. Sometimes I need to talk about it. About my step brothers, my half brother, my step momster, about all these things that they really don’t understand. Again, they would be there for me in a heart beat if I told the I needed to get these things off my chest, but it isn’t the same. Finding your best friend in college can be hard. I’m still learning how to, but I’m not giving up. I have four years to find the people who will be my friends for life.
Okay, I want to jump ship completely and talk about high school friends. It’s very very very difficult to keep up with them. They all have gone to different places and are trying to meet new friends and find a balance in this new life, but just letting them go is wrong. My main high school group still have a group chat together, although it is slow and we don’t talk every day. We are trying to still be a part of one another’s lives. We saw each other over break, and we are making plans for next break. It’s important to have people back home.
I seriously went into this post full-steam, but now I’m tired. Such is the life of a college student I guess. I will try to post more. Also, there are no views on my last post “Battles” I worked really really hard on that one guys. It would mean the world to me if you checked it out and left some thoughts on it. Thank you guys!
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