So this poem is a therapeutic one. Honestly, I have no clue why I’m sharing it with you all. I guess when it’s out there in the world it’s real. It isn’t just an idea, it’s tangible. So here goes nothing and everything.
Sorry
Just sorry
Nothing more
Nothing less
It’s the least you could do
But I don’t want your sorry
Down on your knees
Screaming
Please
Accept this
Small
Comfort
Wrap yourself inside
This apology
But I can’t
I’ve lived too long
To sleep in this blanket
It gets too warm
Outside it’s cold
But I’d rather freeze
Than appease you
Give it up
Let me go
The most you could do
Is say goodbye
And watch from the window
As I extend my wings
And learn the difference
Between flying and falling
Why do you insist on
Chaining me with your sorry?
Holding me captive with your love
This toxic love burns
Neither of us can put out the flames
Let me run
I want to live
Outside this coffin’s walls
I can’t keep
Going on confined
The smoke is choking me
And I can’t breathe
Here’s where you make a choice
You say sorry
And keep me here
And watch me asphyxiate
And love me
And cry at my head stone
Or you let go of my small hand
We tried
Too long
I’ve given up too much
To slow dance with you
In this burning room
As you lick my tears
And apologize
Tell me it’ll be okay
No tell me
That you’ll see me
Some other day
When we’ve both cleared
This room
Of all its ash
And memory
Memory
I’ll give mine to the moon
Let it be haunted by
Who I was
I’m not her anymore
I don’t want your condolences
I won’t smile at your regret
Not anymore
I’m finally who I was always
Meant to be
So save your sorry
You’ll need to give it
To someone else
One day
-AcuteAnimosity
AcuteAnimosity 